Wednesday, 2 April 2014

Fear

My name is Jenna, and I'm a scareaholic.


A fear junkie. Horror hound. Whatever you want to call it. I love being afraid. I love scaring people. Anytime there's a new horror flick, I'm there opening night. I've been reading Stephen King since I was nine (thank you, unsupervised garage sale purchases). I road tripped town to Idaho for Scarywood. That was my 26th birthday pressie from my parents. I wanted to get my engagement ring from a pawn shop just for the slightest chance it had some gory history.

Lately, horror is all I've been writing. I've been burning out on Ghost Adventures and the horror section of Netflix. I've had more nightmares the past month or two then I've had in years. I see the potential for fear everywhere. Last night, for example, I stopped at Walmart to pick up a few things. I turned down an aisle that was only occupied by one other person, an older gentleman. He was tall and wide, wearing work clothes and a plaid jacket. He wore those big, clunky steel-toed boots that always seem to be caked with mud. In his hand was a tiny, fluffy yellow dress. The kind you make your six-month-old wear to a family picnic. That's it. He was probably just picking up a pressie for his granddaughter. But in my head, there is no granddaughter.

There was no one else in Walmart. It wasn't five in the afternoon, it was two in the morning. The lights are flickering on and off. The coolers are empty,the stench of sour milk fills the air. The shelves are bare. I think I'm alone. My shoes squeak on the stained floor as I scavenge for food. I haven't eaten in days. Heavy footsteps fill the air. I press my back against an empty bread shelf. I hold my breath and peek into the next aisle.

A man is at the other end. I haven't seen another human in weeks. He's old, his face tan and weathered like a crumpled paper bag. His head is covered in knotted, grey hair. His mouth is rimmed red. He walks down the aisle, his body jerking from the effort. He doesn't have a weapon. The only thing in his hand is a blood-stained, yellow dress.

And then I blink and see the man return to his cart. Among the groceries is a car seat. He smiles at me and walks on by.

That, ladies and gentleman, is how my brain works. Anyhoo. Moving on.

When I first started drafting my latest brain monster, a YA horror called THROUGH THE PALE DOOR*, I polled my facebook friends about what they were afraid of.




What are you afraid of?

Seriously. This is important writing research.

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Isn't that interesting? People are afraid of random things like balloons and foam, all the way to dying alone or leaving their children. Naturally, I cherry-picked my favorite fears and tossed them into the story. All of my characters experience one or more of their greatest fears, and many will die from them.  Friends, don't say I never wrote anything for you :D  



So now I have to ask....What are you afraid of?



*Thanks for the fab title, Rach!

Thursday, 20 February 2014

How I learned to love.

I'm not one of those writers who love their own work.  I like most of the words I spit out but I've never loved any of them. I thought I was broken for a while. I'd see all these tweets about the anguish my peers were going through by killing off their darlings or writing that really emotional break-up scene that devastates both parties. I felt bummed when I killed off someone or made my characters life a living hell, but I really didn't care as much as everyone else seemed too.

And then I wrote about my father-in-law, Jim.


Jim passed away nearly two years ago. Having someone you choose to love - someone you're not pre-programmed to love like your "real family"- die is an odd thing. That part in your heart you carved out especially for them just explodes. Everything crumbles around you. It was the worst day of my entire life.My husband and our family worked through it as best we could. I tried to be the rock Matt needed me to be, and kind of put my own grief aside.


I've thought about Jim a lot these past couple years. How stubborn and hilarious he is, how hard he loved, how big he laughed...you know...all the good things. I was thinking about him when I had the idea for the Bone Tree, my MG horror.  I never thought about writing a character based off anyone I knew in real life. Especially not a family member. Extra-especially not about one who passed away. Needless to say, I never thought  I'd write my father-in-law as a twelve-year-old boy named Roman.

But I did.

It's been the most therapeutic, awesome experience ever. I got to spend time just remembering him as my character research. Best of all, I get to show the world how kick ass my other Dad is.

So now, for the first time ever, I've loved something I've written. And that feels pretty freaking good.





<3

Monday, 9 December 2013

Hobbit Holes and Sore Toes

I'M SO EXCITED!!!!



Why you ask? Because in mere hours I'm going to see The Hobbit :The Desolation of Smaug!

I won advanced passes from a facebook contest, so there'll be no lines for this girl! In honor of this glorious occasion, I thought I'd show you all some pictures of when I went to the set of The freaking Hobbit when my hubs and I went to New Zealand!!!



So here we go!


Here I am with Gollum before the tour!


Which way will you go?




Here's the view from a special little hobbit hole. 


The Green Dragon Inn



Does this look familiar? This is the path Gandalf rode down as he shot fireworks out for the kids!




The Party Tree !!! (And my Dad)






 BILBO BAGGINS' HOBBIT HOLE!!!



Another hole!


And the view from down below.



I have a couple hundred more photos of the trip but those are a few of my favorites! Now, without further ado, I'm off to the premiere of The Hobbit!!!!






Monday, 18 November 2013

NaNo Catch-up

Howdy!


I'm eighteen days into NaNoWriMo and am super far behind. Like, I need to write at least 5k tomorrow to catch up. I have a huge list of excuses of why I'm behind, but they're just that--excuses. 

For example, I switched from full time to a contractor position at my day job, and now I'm busier than ever. I'm working more than I ever did on salary. I didn't get home until nearly 8 tonight, which for a slacker like me, that's quite the day. By the time I get home, I'm too tired to do anything.

Somehow last week I hurt my back. I spent a good four days bed/couch bound, only getting up to visit the chiro or attempt to stretch. I couldn't even sit up let alone squint through my muscle-relaxcent-riddeled brain fog long enough to write.



During the crazy work week and back pain, I also had a super bad cold. Of course. No one wants to work while they're hacking up a lung. It's been quite the November so far, folks.

But tomorrow, that all changes. I'm going to write. A lot.

I'm aiming for 15k, but I'll be happy with 5k. Hell, I'll be happy with 50 words. 

This story is so much different than anything I've ever tried writing before. For one, it's a total different category and genre. I write YA, my last two MSs being a thriller and a horror.

This book, tentatively called PLUS ONE, is a NA contemporary romance. I'm no stranger to writing sexy times - all of my books have romantic subplots - but writing a whole novel around a relationship is really hard. I find myself going back through my words and typing "ADD FEELINGS' at least once per page. It's hard. 

But regardless of my back, my runny nose, and my venturing into uncharted, yet sexy, waters, I will write tomorrow.

(If you see me on twitter, please shout at me to get back to work)

xox.


Tuesday, 15 October 2013

WIP Goodness

Morning Kittens,



I love the fall. Something about the colors, smells, and pumpkin everything makes me want to write up a storm. I just finished a new YA thriller. By finished I mean drafted and sent to my mother for plot-hole filling. She loves mysteries and is the best person to point out why my huge twist at the end doesn't make sense. Once she gives me the okay, I'll edit like a mofo and send it out to my CPs.

In the mean time, I've been dabbling with a little upper MG ghost story action. I'm only 11k in, but here's a little taste - a sip if you will.




ONE

The rustle of static wakes me up before the pebble against my window does.

“Echo Lima Sierra Indigo Echo, do you read me?” My best friend’s voice comes over the grey walkie talkie he got for Christmas last year.

I sit up and scramble through my nightstand drawer until my hand wraps around the hard plastic. I turn the volume down and hold my breath, waiting for Dad’s thundering footsteps. They don’t come. Another pebble hits my window. I hold down the long plastic button on the side of the walkie. “Romeo Oxford Mike Alpha November, I’m up. Stop chucking stuff at my window.

I can hear Roman laugh without the help of the walkie talkie. “You tryin’ to chicken out on me?”

“No, but if you don’t shut up I’ll be busted before I leave.” I toss the walkie on my bed and stand up, still dressed in my clothes from school. I grab a can of pam out of my nightstand – the same one my sister Beth gave me before she left for college – and spray it around the windowsill. The window slides up without a peep. I hop on the roof, crawl to the edge, and fall into the night. I land in the middle of the trampoline and scamper off.

If I’m going to get caught, it’ll happen now. I give Dad a courtesy minute to turn on his bedside lamp and fling up the blinds. When he doesn’t, I let out the breath I didn’t realize I was holding and hear Roman do the same from somewhere in the shadows.

“Ready, Freddie?” He asks once I join him under the burnt out street lamp. The bulb went out two months ago but no one has bothered to fix it yet. Mom calls the town hotline and leaves messages, but they ignore her.

“I will be once you tell me where we’re going.” I zip up my sweater and stuff my hands in my pockets.

“You’ll see.” Roman grabs his bike and wheels it onto the street.

“Last time you said that we both got grounded for a week,” I say as I swing my leg over the back tire and step onto the purple pegs sticking out from the wheel.

“It was so worth it.” Roman pushes off and we sail down the street.

I grab Roman’s shoulders and smile as the wind pushes my hair out of my face. Roman was right; the last time he said “you’ll see” had led to an epic outdoor swim with a couple of other kids in our grade. We would’ve made it scot free if the Wilson’s hadn’t upgraded their security system to include the backyard. The cops showed up after Travis Smith decided to jump off the shed, somehow setting off the alarm that had ignored us swimming for the house before.

“Is anyone else coming?” I ask as Roman turns onto an unfamiliar side street.

“Naw,” he says. “I thought it could just be us tonight. I need to talk to you.”

My stomach flips a little. The last time Roman needed to talk was to tell me he was breaking up with Claire Mitchell. The time before was because his grandpa died. I think back to the last week of school but I can’t remember any new crushes or fights. He did get his English test back on Friday though so maybe his teacher discovered he was some sort of Shakespeare genius and he was leaving for Yale immediately. That means I’m going have to finish grade eight alone.

“You’re not leaving me for Yale, are you?” I dig my fingers into his shoulders as he pops up onto the curb.

“What are you talking about?” Roman peddles onto a grassy trail that leads into a bunch of trees.

“Never mind,” I say.

Roman skids to a halt once we reach the first tree. “We have to walk from here.” He leans his bike against a short, iron fence that’s been there so long the trees have grown through the spaces between the metal bars.

It takes me a second to realize where we are. “You’re crazy if you think I’m going in there.”

Roman reaches back and snags my hand. “Don’t be a baby, Elsie.”

I yank my hand free and climb over the fence. I am not a baby. I follow Roman down a dark, twisting path that most likely leads to the spookiest part of Fredric Falls cemetery. We crunch over fallen orange leaves and hop over tree roots as we go farther and farther into the shadows. I have to look down as I walk; if I trip and rip my new jeans, Mom will know I snuck out.

“We’re here.” Roman stops walking so fast I almost crash into him.

“Where are we?” I look around at the tree we’re standing under. It’s unlike any tree I’ve ever seen before, and I’ve been to summer camp, so I’ve seen a lot of trees. For starters, there’s not a single piece of bark on it. The trunk is smooth and so pale grey it’s almost white. The branches reach for the twinkling stars but there isn’t a single leaf anywhere on them.

“It’s called the Bone Tree,” Roman says. “Neat, hey?”

“And creepy.” I sit down on the dirt and rest my back on the tree. “So are you gonna spill your guts or what?”

“I have to tell you the story of the Bone Tree first.”  Roman sits next to me and pushes his square-rimmed glasses up his nose.  He got contacts for his thirteenth birthday but he wears his glasses when it’s just us. He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a packet of twinkies. He opens them and passes me one. “My brother told me about the tree last night. He and his friends, Rory and Trish, came here on the weekend.”

I stuff the twinkie in my mouth and try to talk around the sweet, fluffy goodness. “Did they take turns frenching Trish?”

Roman shrugs. “I didn’t ask. Now shut up, will ya? I’m trying to tell you a ghost story.”

I swallow the twinkie and stick my tongue out at him.

Roman clears his throat like Dad does before grace. “’Kay, once up a time, like four hundred years ago, there lived a priest named Samuel. He came over from Europe with his wife, but she died on the ship. He settled here, in Fredric Falls, and started a church. He was happy with his congregation but he was lonely. A month later, a huge flood wiped out a bunch of the farm land surrounding the town. A local farmer offered Samuel his only daughter if he could plant crops on the church’s land.”

“He traded his daughter for dirt?” I shake my head. “What a crappy dad.”

“It was a different time,” Roman says. “Your dad would trade you for a herd of goats if you lived back then.”

“No he wouldn’t.” My wavy, messy blonde hair blows in my face so I grab a handful of it and twist it into a braid.

Roman stares at my hair. “You’re right. You’d be worth at least two herds. Maybe a pig too.”

I throw a handful of leaves at him. “What happened to Samuel and the girl? Did they get married?”

Roman nods. “They fell in love too. They had a little boy and they were really happy for a couple of years. But then Mary, the wife, got sick.”

“The priest has no luck with the ladies.” I run my hands through the soft dirt.

Roman stands up and looks up at the glowing moon. “She died right before the fall harvest. Samuel went crazy. He sent his son away and kept Mary’s body locked up in his house. He prayed over her body for days, and when that didn’t work, he brought in a witch to bless the body. It wasn’t until Mary’s father showed up that the priest decided to lay his love to rest.”

For some stupid reason I feel a tear running down my cheek. I wipe it away before Roman can see. “What does any of this have to do with the tree?”

“I’m getting to that.” Roman pushes his shaggy black hair out of his eyes. “The farmer dug his daughter a grave in this cemetery and planted a tree over top of her body because they couldn’t afford a headstone.”

I half jump, half crawl away from the tree. “Why didn’t you tell me I was sitting on a dead person?”

“Because she didn’t stay dead,” Roman whispers in my ear.

I shove him away and wiggle as a chill crawls up my spine.

Roman keeps going. “The priest turned his back on his church and locked himself in his house to grieve. He didn’t come out until he heard reports of a woman in white roaming the cemetery. Samuel spent night after night at Mary’s grave, crying and begging God to show him his wife.”

“Did God answer his prayers?” I try to remember my old Sunday school classes. I know people rose from the dead all the time, but I can’t remember if they roamed graveyards after or not.

“Someone did, but I don’t think it was God.” Roman walks in a slow circle around the tree. “On the fourth day Samuel found his wife, still dressed in the white gown she was married, and later buried, in. Samuel scooped her up but she was made of icy mist and nothing more. She didn’t laugh or smile like she used too either, and when the sun came up she disappeared. Samuel waited for her the next night and when Mary came back, she spoke to him. She told him she wasn’t strong enough to stay on her own. She needed help.”

“So what did the priest do?” I wrap my arms around myself and hop from foot to foot. “Bring her a power bar and an energy drink?”

This earns me a full on Roman chuckle. For such a skinny guy, Roman has a huge laugh. “This was four hundred years ago, Els, not four. Samuel read books on black magic and voodoo spells and found out if he buried articles from other dead people it would give Mary strength.”

“Things?” I ask. “Like bones?”

Roman shakes his head. “I don’t think so. Jake said it was stuff like lockets and handkerchiefs. The priest wasn’t a grave robber—he only took things the dead left behind, and he always asked their families first. Soon, once he had buried enough stuff, Mary came back to him. She was only there at night, but it was enough for Samuel. Mary was as white as chalk and freezing cold, but Samuel could actually touch her. He spent years in the cemetery with his wife, and each time she started to fade away, he’d bring her back with a photograph or a letter.”

“That’s stupid,” I say. “What kind of life is that? He could have met another girl but instead he wasted his life in the dark and dirt.”

Roman shrugs. “I dunno, if you could keep someone you loved around, wouldn’t it be worth it?”

I wrinkle my nose. I can’t imagine loving a boy, let alone loving one enough to spend the rest of my life in a place like this. The thought makes something in my brain snap into place. “Why are you telling me all of this?”

Roman takes his glasses off and gives me a sad little smile. “Because I’m dying.”



Tuesday, 27 August 2013

Review: Delia's Shadow

I received an eArc from Net Galley. Delia's Shadow will be available September 17th, 2013.


Delia's Shadow is a beautifully written, often thrilling, ghost story set in San Francisco in 1915.

Delia Martin is returning home from New York City to her adopted family after a three year trip. On the train, we're introduced to Shadow, a persistent yet kind spirit that only Delia can see. Shadow is desperately trying to get Delia to solve her murder, but all she can show Delia are dream images from her death. We meet Sadie, Delia's dear friend and foster sister, as well as Sadie's fiance, Jack, and his partner Gabe. As the Panama Expo begins, a serial killer from Gabe's past starts to torture and kill again.

Gabe and Delia grow close, and as her Shadow shows more and more of her life to Delia, it becomes increasingly clear that she is one of the killers victims. Gabe, Jack, and Delia work together to solve Shadow's murder before the cunning killer can strike again.



I really enjoyed this book. Usually I find historical fiction a little hard to get into, but Moyer starts off so strong that I found it hard to put the book down. 

I love how strong Delia and Sadie are. They support Jack and Gabe just as much as the men protect them. I never once felt like Delia was a damsel that needed rescuing. I'm used to in-your-face contemporary, so the subtle romance took a little bit of getting used too. As the story went on, the chemistry between Gabe and Delia was undeniable.

The paranormal aspects were deliciously creepy. I found myself checking over my shoulder for a Shadow of my own more than once. The suspense was gripping, so much so that I read the last one hundred pages in one sitting. The death and torture details were tasteful yet terrifyingly effective.

The setting was awesome. I loved the descriptions of the dresses and the restaurants. The expo was one of my favorite scenes - I really felt like I was a part of the action and excitement.

Rating: 4/5

I can't wait to buy my own copy of Delia's Shadow and I'm looking forward to anything else Jamie Lee Moyer releases.

Monday, 26 August 2013

26

Yesterday was my 26th birthday. I'm almost in my late twenties. This is both exciting and nauseating.

25 was a good year. I wrote a couple books, had one published, and landed my super faboosh agent, Kat Rushall! 

I really don't see how 26 can live up to 25, but I really hope it puts up a good fight.

So I thought I'd put up 26 random things  about myself / goals for this year / more random stuff.


1.   I'd like a book deal. (shocker, I know.)

2. I absolutely hate the sound of people eating. Especially weirdly textured food like bananas. I also despise hurried eaters. The ones who cannot get food into their mouth fast enough. I have a lot of food related peeves.

3. My neighbor has a litter of five week old boxer puppies and I got ALL the birthday kisses.

4. I almost cried during the thirty second N'Sync reunion.

5. I don't realize the book I'm writing sucks until I'm already 30k into it. 

6. I'm obsessed with audiobooks.

7. My favorite color is purple.

8. I got black chuck taylors for my birthday. I'm in desperate need of ankle socks.

9. I have seven tattoos.

10. I love the Twilight saga && don't hate FSOG.

11. I haven't clapped in my house since I watched the Conjuring.

12. I think my husband is actually the hottest guy on the planet.

13. For my 26th birthday, my Mom got me a trip to Silverwood theme park. I'm currently making a calender with count down days on it. I'm like a freaking seven year old.

14. My great grandpa is 102 and just bought my book.

15. I have to remind myself that Jamie Bower is not actually Jace Wayland.

16. Sugar saves any spaghetti sauce.

17. I love cabbage.

18. I loathe mushrooms, but love mushroom soup. (I strain the little mushroom chunks).

19. Neil Gaiman is my patronus.

20. I think Ben Affleck will make a fine Batman.

21. I think Moonchild is a stupid name.

22. I've seen the Princess Bride 500 times. (It sounds like an exaggeration, but it's really not. I watched it before bed at least four times a week in high school).

23. Number 22 gave me unreal expectations about first loves.

24. Sometimes I let my eighty pound German Shepard sleep on my pillow and I put my head on her tummy.

25. My family is cooler than your family. Just kidding. Your family is equally as cool as mine. Let's have a picnic.

26. This year will be my best year yet.